Iboga: The Psychedelic Medicine That Healed My Coming-Out Trauma

Well, I did it. I underwent a week of disconnection from social media and the outside world and deep into a psycho-spiritual journey with a shaman and a psychedelic plant medicine. The only way I can describe the experience is …

Basic Spirituality

Many people recoil at hearing ‘god’ or ‘spirituality’ because these simple words arouse a negative or oppressive idea of some form of religion or philosophy that was impressed upon them when they were younger. The truth is ‘god’ and ‘spirituality’ …

Homo/Phobia

My husband would playfully lift the squishy toy up and down, just out of grasp, as our little baby boy reached and giggled and squeaked. My husband, standing over the crib in his fitted blue t-shirt (he was always wearing …

It Wasn’t Too Late to Tell Me I Was Loved

Since I posted my last piece about Isolation of the Spirit, some wonderful things have happened.

Family and friends who didn’t at first accept my coming out (when I was 17) have messaged, commented and explained that they love …

Moments of Clarity

Moments of Clarity

My chest muscles have clamped down on my heart. My arms are limp, and my jaw is pulling to the left. I’m hunched in the corner of my bachelor apartment—paralyzed from having smoked crack for the last …

Gay Dating: Through the Lens of My Insecurity

“He suggested we grab that coffee that I had originally asked about. We are meeting next Thursday at his place!” I said to Alex—my psychotherapist. “That’s a date, right?”

His tone is calm and meant to be reassuring, practical and …

Welcome to Michael Off The Mat

I’m 41 years old with a pretty rich history of living to extremes.

I was brought to my knees by addiction at an early age and then catapulted into an ever-evolving adventure of self-discovery and determination to find purpose in …