Leaving AA and Healing With Plant Medicine

By the time I arrived in AA in September 2001, I had been in rehab three times, a halfway house, a psychiatric hospital and had still found myself on my knees—strung out—on a street corner—crying to a police officer. I …

Teacher of Life: My Personal Journey with Ayahuasca

Incredibly and miraculously, ayahuasca induced within me profound insights and epiphanies. It broke down emotional walls that I had confined myself within for years. 

The insights came to me through an inherent ‘knowing’ and a kind of thought-sound rather than …

Iboga: The Psychedelic Medicine That Healed My Coming-Out Trauma

Well, I did it. I underwent a week of disconnection from social media and the outside world and deep into a psycho-spiritual journey with a shaman and a psychedelic plant medicine. The only way I can describe the experience is …

TRUE(self)LOVE

There’s a saying in my recovery program that ‘faith without works is dead.’ There’s also instructions that remind us when we take a leap of faith, that it’s not enough to simply make the decision in our mind, rather it …

Higher-Self Help

I believe I’m in the middle of a spiritual awakening.

I’m in a twelve step program, the twelfth step of which states, “Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to …

Emotional Sobriety

When I was nearly 17 years sober from my major addictions, my guru told me that there had come a time in his own sobriety journey when he wanted more than just abstinence from alcohol and drugs. He wanted peace …

I’m As Sick As the Secrets I Keep

Late night large pizzas, two pints of Ben & Jerry’s (albeit non-dairy) and obsessive flipping back and forth between a couple of ‘dating’ apps are few of my least favourite things. You wouldn’t be able to gauge my disdain for …

It Wasn’t Too Late to Tell Me I Was Loved

Since I posted my last piece about Isolation of the Spirit, some wonderful things have happened.

Family and friends who didn’t at first accept my coming out (when I was 17) have messaged, commented and explained that they love …

Isolation of the Spirit

Isolation of the Spirit

I’ve been alone and lonely most of my life. I’ve been isolated and lonesome even when I’m in a room full of people—even while I’m in the middle of a crowd of my students or friends …

Trusting Passion and Moving Through Uncertainty

Trusting Passion and Moving Through Uncertainty

I’m in a bit of a dilemma. And what better way to move through it than to write about it?

My dilemma is this: I know that I am more than I currently am, …